How has God transformed you?
He has transformed me by showing me that I have been fearfully and wonderfully created with a purpose. After struggling with depression and self-worth, this powerful revelation has changed my life. I used to think I was worthless, too fragile, and that the world was better off without me. I would focus on the negative in my life and thought He didn’t love me because He allowed bad things to happen to me. Oh boy, was I wrong. He loved me so much that He carried me and held my hand through it all, guiding me and never once forsaking me. He used each and every struggle I encountered to show me how much I need Him and how worthy I am. Every struggle had a purpose. He used each one of them to work in a certain area of my life. He wanted to heal and transform my heart because He saw more in me than I could possibly see. All I needed to do was surrender and allow Him to mold me to be the strong and courageous woman I am today.
Psalm 139:13 says, “He created my inmost being and knit me together in my mother's womb.” He has loved me even before I was born, and now I finally know why. He sees me as His precious, valiant daughter that was created to spread His gracious and joyous spirit.
What have you experienced him pruning in your life and rebuilding?
It’s a beautiful thing knowing that the perfect artist has worked so hard on His masterpiece and yet still wants to continue doing so. I have a hard time letting go control of things but when I look at all He has done in my life, how can I not trust in His perfect plans for my life (His masterpiece)? My life is a work in progress and I’ve learned to be ok with that. However, I still have to learn and need to practice letting go and resting in Him. As a wife and mother I make the mistake of thinking that if I don’t get things done around the house or in my family’s life, no one will. I carry a burden that was never given to me in the first place. I get caught up in all the things I have to get done and lose track of what’s important.
God has been showing me that He wants me to surrender and trust in Him to take care of us. The Bible says in Proverbs 3:5-6 to “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight”. I love that He promises to straighten our paths when we choose to rely and submit to Him.
I don’t want to set the wrong example to my son of a prideful, controlling mother. I want him to grow up seeing me as a woman of faith who wholeheartedly loves Jesus and surrenders in her artist’s hands.
How do you trust what God is building when you can’t yet see the end result?
Trusting God to finish the work He has begun in me has demanded so much faith. It has required me to believe that He loves me and has the best plans for my life. When fear and uncertainty start taking a hold of me, I stop and re-evaluate where I’ve been and where I am now. I ask myself, “If my past is filled with so much mercy and faithfulness, how much more will He have for my future?”
The Bible is filled with so many promises of blessings, and I choose to take hold of each one of them and declare them over my life. I don’t know what the future holds but I’m certain He won’t give up on me. He will be the loving Father He’s always been and will continue to mold me into the purpose-filled woman He has created me to be.