Jeremiah 31:2-3, "Thus says the LORD:”The people who survived the sword found grace in the wilderness; when Israel sought for rest, the LORD appeared to him from far away. I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore I have continued my faithfulness to you."
I know I am here by the amazing grace of God. My life story is one of grace. As a son of A Pastor I can't remember a time where I didn't know about God, who He is, what He has done throughout history and seeing His magnificence unfold in people's lives. The strange thing is, the constant exposure to the things of God almost desensitized me to the true essence of our faith, which is a real relationship with Jesus, his Father, and our Helper the Holy Spirit. I feel like throughout my teen years and into college,I knew how to do church. I knew how to pray and worship, but I never took the time to get to know Jesus.
Throughout these years I battled with issues in relationships and self-esteem, with near death experiences, etc. I was looking for self-worth in everything else other than God. Meanwhile I had an amazing support system in my parents, siblings, extended family, and church family. They constantly reminded me of the purpose God had for me. I appreciated all of it but continued to do things my way.
I came to a place through a series of decisions where I had no choice but to take a step of faith in the direction of the Father, so I went to Bible College. In all honesty I didn't really feel like going, but growing up I always knew I would go to Bible college and I always knew which school I would attend, so I went.
I'm a firm believer that there is nothing in this world more incredible than a true encounter with Jesus. An encounter where He rocks your world. For me, in that moment, in an ordinary Bible college service, I felt what I can only describe it as a tangible form of love. I cried tears of joy as He revealed the innermost parts of me that needed to change. From that moment I was never the same. Even though this was amazing, things became harder because I couldn't do what I wanted anymore. I had to make the conscious decision daily to do things His way.
Fast forward a bit: I went through an experience that truly tested my faith, and I was so disappointed that I pulled away from the amazing relationship I had with Jesus and started to do things my way again. I feel like the enemy had me right where he wanted me. In conversation one night, my brother mentioned C3 to me and I said to myself, “It's time to go to church again.” So I attended C3, and for the first time in a long time I felt that tangible presence of God not only directly from God but pouring out of everyone I met. That week I made up in my mind I would be all in and never turn back. The following Saturday night, August 23, I had my clothes picked out for church the next day. I left home to go out with my brother. At 1am on August 24, my brother and I were involved in an incident that should have killed us both. But His grace!
So when I am asked who is Jesus to me, I can say that He is faithful when I'm not - the more unmerited, the greater His favor. His grace is more than sufficient especially when we are in the wilderness.
I am honored to lead worship at C3 Brooklyn because every time I am up there singing I'm reminded of His grace and I’m able to give my all in pursuit of being all in!