My body and my heart fail, but God is my heart’s rock and my share forever.
// Psalms 73:26
When Georgie and I arrived in New York to plant C3 Brooklyn, I felt as though I had nothing in myself to give. It’s hard to describe, but I felt really broken. Don't get me wrong – I was full of faith and vision, but at the same time totally broken. Confidence in myself was at an all-time low, and I thought that maybe as the year went on, and amazing things started to happened all around us in C3 Brooklyn, I would feel like I had more to give and less broken.
That hasn't happened. It seems crazy, but I feel more broken than ever; I feel weak and out of my depth every day. Ironically, I have never been more happy and full of joy. Despite the emptiness I feel in myself, I feel full of God's Spirit. His grace has never been more real to me than it is in this season.
Psalm 73 hits upon the same subject that Job's friends couldn't get their heads around: the current prosperity of the wicked men and the present sorrows of the Godly. It’s this counter-intuitive reality for believers that is the true prosperity for our lives. It is from this place of brokenness that we realize all other things must pass away, and that there really is nothing in this world that can save us or fill us with joy, but God alone.
Worship in your heart today might look like brokenness. Yours may feel like a heart that is not content with this world, or it may have a feeling of emptiness, and yet this could be the answer to all your prayers.
Where our flesh fails us and our hearts feel empty, that’s where we discover everything we have ever wanted – it’s staring us right in the face. His name is Jesus Christ. He is the Rock of our hearts and our portion forever.
Look no further! You have found what you’re looking for, and your broken heart is confirming that He is the One you were created to worship.
// Josh Kelsey