WORDLESS SIGHS AND ACHING

And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words. And the Father who knows all hearts knows what the Spirit is saying, for the Spirit pleads for us believers in harmony with God’s own will.

// Romans 8:26-27

Life can be painful. We all know this first hand. Sometimes we have a clear understanding of our difficulties and needs, and may find that conversation with God comes easily, like chatting with a close friend. But what about when we’re going through an extremely low point, full of confusion and heartache? What if you met your friend for coffee and just started making odd, ugly noises? Aside from the strange looks you'd attract, I'm sure your friend would have no clue what was going on, let alone know how to respond or comfort you.

Fortunately for us, our Heavenly Father knows every cell in our bodies and every thought we've ever had. Beyond that, He knows our emotions and pain where there are no words created to describe them. When we can't even understand what we are thinking or feeling, when we don't know what to say because the situation is just too big, or when we feel so hopeless it's as if our brain has decided to shut down, He understands.

A few years after I moved to New York, I had a very powerful encounter with God. He clearly told me to do something that I knew I needed to do but had been avoiding for a long time. It was one of the lowest points I've gone through emotionally. My heart hurt so badly that I actually had to call off work. Instead, I went to Washington Square Park and groaned to my Father. I let out my sorrow and my cry for help in actual audible noises. The pain was too much to comprehend, but I knew God understood better than I ever would. I trusted that He had a great plan in the works, which I later found out was so much better than anything I could have dreamed.

I still cling to this comforting verse in Romans, knowing that I never have to have the perfect words, the correct grammar or even an understanding of what I am feeling in order to come to Him. I can simply cry out to God in my groaning, and He is listening to what I can't even say. He is always fighting for us and working to help us find our place in His perfect plan.  

// Tiffany Clark