“Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. For by it the people of old received their commendation. By faith we understand that the universe was created by the word of God, so that what is seen was not made out of things that are visible.”

// Hebrews 11:1-3

Often, the notion of living a life of “faith” can feel overwhelmingly untouchable, so idealistic and impossible. We feel like we are always failing and can never reach a place of complete faith. The idea of having complete and utter assurance of what you hope for and conviction of what you do not see [Hebrews 11:1-3] can seem completely unattainable. This disappointment and frustration at our personal lack of faith can then transform into frustration and anger toward ourselves and toward God.

There are seasons in life when we are full of faith, brimming over, encouraging others, and then there are seasons [which everyone has] when we struggle just to believe the basics — just to believe that He is even for us. Life can deliver some hard blows, knocking the wind out of us.

I was feeling this way recently, and I texted my husband to express and share with him my frustration at my own lack of faith. He wrote back two very powerful, simple words that completely floored me: “Mustard Seed.” He was quoting Jesus in the gospels. In Luke 17:6, Jesus’ disciples are asking Him to increase their faith. Jesus says in response, “If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, ‘Be uprooted and planted in the sea,’ and it will obey you.”

Our faith is a partnership. We are not in this alone, frantically trying to muster up this thing called “belief”! God knows we are human. He became one of us, after all. He knows our struggle to believe, and He is looking for humble hearts who truthfully acknowledge where they are at.

In Mark 9:24 when the man says to Jesus, “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!” Jesus’ response is not condemnation, frustration or ignoring the situation. He immediately acts and heals the man’s son. He takes the man’s mustard seed sized faith and combines it with His power to completely transform the situation.

Humility attracts God and is an act of worship. God gives grace to the humble [Prov 3:34, James 4:6, 1 Peter 5:5]. Be real with where you are at — He knows anyway, so you may as well talk with Him about the elephant in the room. It is from a place of honesty and humility that we become close again with our Creator and He is able to fill us with truth, grace and love — rebuilding and refueling our faith once again. May our first step in ascending this mountain over these 92 days be a humble, faith-filled step, knowing He is for us and with us every step of the way.

// Pastor Georgie Kelsey